So tonight was just another frustrating event where I thought I had it all together only to realize no matter how hard I try, I seem to fail. And I just wanted to cry. A matter of fact, as I was trying to flat iron my hair as quickly as possible, a few tears escaped my eyes & I quickly wiped them away so I wouldn't have to explain to Reggie why I was crying.
Why do I feel this way? Why do I feel like no matter what I do or how hard I try or work, I fail? Why do I feel like it's never enough or good enough? Why am I so frustrated with myself & others? Why can't I pull it together?
I read a message, a friend put on Facebook sharing the difference between a Super Woman & an Abiding Woman. I'm embarassed to admit it but I fell under the Super Woman category and that's not a good thing.
Super Woman verses Abiding Woman
Does vs. Is
Tries to impress others vs Pleases the Lord
Is controlled by agenda vs Is controlled by Holy Spirit
Self worth found in accomplishments vs Self worth found in accurate view of who she is in Christ
Discouraged by failure vs Remembers Gods strength is made perfect in weakness
Expects perfection from self & others vs Practices grace with self & others
Teaches her kids to be good vs Teaches her kids to be Godly
Frustrated with lack of spiritual fruit vs Abides in Christ & bears much fruit
Does things with children vs Builds a relationship with children
Perspective is based on what is seen vs Perspective is based on what is unseen
Chooses quantity of activities vs Chooses the most excellent of ways
What can I say? I asked God tonight what was I doing wrong? And He has shown me. Does this make me feel like a bigger failure than ever? YES! But I must move from trying to be super woman to being an abiding woman! A super woman, I am not & will never be, no matter how hard I try! But with your help Lord, I can abide! I must abide!
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