Once again I find myself here. God has asked me to 'blog' ...well not in those words but I'm suppose to write. Why? Not sure. What? Don't really know. What I do know is I start & then I stop??? I need to learn how to be real. I think I'm real but then I'm not really? I'm not sure I really know how to be. I don't consider myself a vain person but I'm too concerned about my image (how I will look) - it's true! I want to be someone I'm not or maybe there's this kind of person I want to be... I'm just not that person yet!
I'm hoping God will help me to become real & in doing so ...maybe He has a plan in it all;) ... I want to make a difference for real...like really help someone - how? I don't know - I feel so far from that right now. Only a handful of friends & family even know I have a blog but It's been so long since I have written I'm sure they've even forgotten but that's okay...as for now...I need to do this for me. I need to obey what God has been telling me for so long & that's good enough for me!
I just read a blog from an aquaintance & I was encourage by their honesty with their struggles. And God has used it to once again remind me that I need to write & I need to share my struggles & not fear how I will look or if no one cares or for that matter if anyone ever even reads this. I need to get real with myself. Thank you God for continuing to be patient with me & reminding me to do what you've asked me to do so many times! And thank you M & C for your blog & your honesty that has made me try this once again! Here I am Lord!
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